The First Test....

No problems at work..its smoke free so its a no brainer. The real test will be tonite. I'm hitting the treadmill after work first though and then its on to house #2 to finish the bathroom vanity. Hopefully, I will be so busy I won't be thinking about cigarettes and can stay in a separate room from my husband.... : )

Off to a baby shower...I hate it when they do these things at the end of the work day. During lunch would have made more sense...but then, they didn't ask us planners!

My Last Smoke...

Yep, I've been holding off for a bit. I want to enjoy one more before tomorrow. I'm actually kinda looking forward to it. I see my doctor this week too so I can get my knees and my blood work. Don't know what's going on with the knees...age probably. I think maybe it was the running I had started to do on the treadmill. Walking is OK but since I've never been a runner, I guess starting it at this stage wasn't a real good idea. Whatever...now I know.

Stand by...I'll be back tomorrow I'm sure for an update. I can do this, I will do this. I even reminded my husband that tomorrow is the day and he promises to keep them out of my view.

I'm gonna do this...

Finally Friday...

What a week...glad its coming to a close. Ok, when I was on Chantix before, I only took it for 6 weeks so I have a couple weeks left on one pack, and I just stopped at the pharmacy and they are giving me my last month....free, just like the others. I thought maybe I would have to pay for it since my company discontinued the offer at the end of 2007. So, at least I'm not going to have to pay anything out of pocket for the meds...that's good.

I have a real good buddy at work...J....and her husband has been using Chantix too. He's about 4 weeks ahead of me and he too has had a slip. We've both picked Monday as our quit date and we've both started taking it again. He's got a lot more at risk as he has the beginnings of emphysema...so J really wants him to quit for good. J has a hard time understanding the addiction since she's never smoked.

Saw the grandbabies last night. We're keeping them overnight tonight and all day tomorrow. Its going to be so cold around here that we're just going to hunker down and build a fire to stay warm. My husband will just have to freeze his butt off if he wants to smoke!

I had 3 yesterday....down 1 from the day before. Its a process, what can I say. We all have to do it the best way that works for us. I'm hoping to cut another one out today. My knees are doing better so I'm getting back on the treadmill today. I miss the exercise and know that's part of my slip.

I'm Going to Do it This Time!

My first post, my first promise. After 122 days smoke-free, I started up. The month of December got to me with the holidays and stress, and I reached for one of my husband's cigarettes. It hasn't stopped. I told myself for a while that since I hadn't bought any I was OK and then I told myself that since I only smoked 1-2 a day I was OK...but its getting worse. Still haven't bought any but I had 4 last night.

So, today is a brand new day. I still have enough Chantix for a month so I began again. I know I'll have some of the side effects from the drug again, but I want to be done with cigarettes for good regardless whether my husband quits or not.