Monday, March 24, 2008

I Need a Vacation....

I just hate it when guys think they are so-o-o-o-o cool and know everything! I'm sitting here listening to 2 male co-workers discuss a project that I have had my hand in for years....and they know that, but now they finally discovered something that's been common knowledge. Not to mention the fact that I, and others, have mentioned to them. They're acting like they just discovered America and wonder why this hasn't been brought out before now....just so they can pat themselves on the back or scratch their crotches, or whatever.

Then the boss comes out and calls them his 'Jedi Knights'.....I'm getting sick to my stomach. And yet....if you ask either one of these guys a question, they will get a frickin' blank look on their face, re-ask you the question, get a pained, constipated look on their face, confirm they don't have the slightest idea on the answer, and then go ask the boss. He will think they are brilliant for asking the queston, and call them his 'Jedi Knights' yet again!

ACK!

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Fabulous News....

The robins are back...the robins are back! That has to mean that the gray, cold, snowy, miserable, good-for-nothing days of winter are about to be over with, except for the snow storm that's supposed to arrive late tonight with what they are calling 'measurable accumulation'. WTH? I've had enough. I don't want and I don't need another 6-8" of that crap!

But, my birthday was great, so what if I'm another year older...I've earned every wrinkle and gray hair! I left a few hours early from work so we went to Macaroni Grill for dinner (yumm, one of my ultimate all-time favorites) and then did some gambling. Came back with $1100....heck of a lot more than we left with! All in all, it was a good day. And I felt my Mom smiling down on me as I was sitting in front of that slot machine...thanks Mom!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

A Step Foward....

Even though it doesn't sound like it, I may have taken a step forward yesterday in my attempt to become a former smoker. I actually bought a pack of cigarettes...up until this time I have been "borrowing" my husband's when I had a craving. I know, that doesn't sound like a step forward, it sounds like a step backward...but bear with me here. I get home, do my normal routine (change clothes, get on the treadmill for a bit, etc), and decide to have a glass of wine. I sit down on the couch, open my purse, pull out a cigarette and light it....and out of the corner of my eye watch my husband's reaction. All he could say was...you probably bought those because of me, didn't you. I told him no, I bought them because I wanted a good cigarette. Then he said the magic words....but you wouldn't have if I would be a little more considerate and not smoke in the house, right? BINGO! That sure would go a long, long way in this effort if I didn't have to smell smoke every frickin' moment of the day when I'm home.

So...yes, it was a step backward to buy a pack of cigarettes after 7 months; actually it felt really weird. But, yes, it was a step forward because he has promised to make an effort to not smoke around me and try to leave his cigarettes outside. Yeah, I know, sounds good now and ultimately, I am the one who has to be the strong one. I'm getting there....only smoked 2 yesterday.

Its a process that I'm willing to work through. I still have some Chantix, I just don't like what it does to me and my thyroid meds are still out of whack, which reminds me to call the doc and see when I need to have my blood drained for his pleasure.

Monday, March 3, 2008

Its Monday!

And I'm back at work! Yippee! Ok, don't want that to sound too excited but I am happy to be back at work. Love my grandkids, so glad I could take the time off work to help, wouldn't have changed a thing....but still, when that door closed on Saturday night, I was doing a happy dance. Then we went out to dinner and on Sunday, we went gambling. I feel much better!

Ok, so I haven't made any strides on the cigarette front yet, but I also haven't bought any nor am I smoking any more...just not any less. I need to get my head wrapped around it again and make the decision...its not going to work if I don't really want to quit.

I sure wish the weather would get warm...it was so much easier to quit in August when it was warm and I was outside working in the gardens. I have plenty to keep me busy inside, but the husband is smoking inside also....at least outside, I can get away from the smell.